TALKING about quitting my full time job was the easy part

I have been working as an executive assistant since 2012. I have met some truly amazing people over the past few years, including my boss. I don't think I've ever met a more kind or sincere superior. He is the president of my organization, yet has no problem answering phones, making photo copies, or even grilling up hotdogs at our hotdog days. Telling him my time as his assistant has to come to an end was the hard part. 

My boss has 6 kids of his own and his wife has always been a stay at home mom. He is a true family man. To say he understood was an understatement. He hoped that I would try to find a way to be home with the baby because he believes it's important. He did say: "You once said to me 'What am I going to do when you retire?'. This wasn't the deal!" We laughed. I certainly expected him to leave me, not the other way around. 

I'm aware I'm giving up an amazing job with even better coworkers. It was the only thing that was holding me back in the beginning. As time passed I started to realize my mind wasn't at work anymore. It has been home with my little nugget. 

I have to say I expected a little bit more negative feedback. I am happy to say that mostly everyone has told me "you're doing the right thing", "I wish I had the guts to do what you are doing" or the one that hit home the most: "they're not little forever". Knowing I have support from friends, family and coworkers is an great feeling. It's honestly empowering. Negative vibes create negative results, so thank you for the positivity!

The official journey with this dude begins May 21st!

i am typing this with one hand; my other hand is covered in drool thanks to my teething 4 month old, Harry.

I am a new mom who wants to share her story on how she scrounges up enough money to be a stay at home mom. I am a typical mom. My husband doesn't make hundreds of thousands of dollars and my parents don't have a trust fund set up for me.  At this point, I have no idea what I am going to do.  I am scared, sad, anxious, excited and an all around mental train wreck.

I haven't quit my job, officially, but in my mind I am already a SAHM (stay at home mom), or should I say WAHM (work at home mom).  It is literally impossible for me to stop working all together.  You're probably thinking I am crazy, irresponsible, or selfish, but that's okay. You're not hurting my feelings. I know, deep down, I am doing what best for my family. 

When I found out I was pregnant I said, without a doubt, that I will be back to work 6 weeks after I have the baby. HA! After I had him I realized I wanted to take an additional 6. So that is what I did. I took 12 weeks off with my beautiful son and cherish every.single.second. that I was blessed with.  I have been back to work since March 19th (I will never forget that day). Today is April 26th and I know I can not do it any longer. 

My sister and mom have been watching my little man since I went back. I cried like a little baby when I left him the first day, but it got easier as the weeks went by. I realized that my sister can't watch him forever. My time with her was slipping away and it started to really get to me. So, I spoke with my husband. I guess I shouldn't say spoke because I cried, and whined. I am so against my baby boy going to daycare before he can talk. It scares the SHIT out of me. There! I said it. 

I have NOTHING against moms (or daycares in general) who can do it. Actually I kind of envy them because they are so strong.  I am week and I am fine with that. I know I have to pay the price for it.  Every day I have to wake up and think "what can I do today to make money". It's frightening, but to me, nothing is scarier than putting Harry in the care of strangers.